I was holding the steering wheel so tight… My knuckles turned white and my hands burned…
Every inch of my body was shaking… Like I had been swimming in the freezing cold ocean…
Tears streamed down my face, mirroring the cold winter rain.
A soul twisting sadness bubbled up from the deepest parts of me…
It mixed with an anger that boiled and burned in my guts…
I felt like my life was over.
Yet at the same time, there was a strange relief…
I felt as if something amazing was about to unfold…
Have you ever felt that, a sense of impending doom and relief… Joy and sadness… Anger and peace… All at the same time?
I was driving away from a relationship, a job and a community… But not by choice.
It had all fallen apart around me… And it was my worst fear.
I was holding on SO tight… But not to the steering wheel.
To a life that needed to change…
My attachments, fears and resistance to change were making me sick…
I wanted to control my life, and do what I wanted…
Denying all the signs and symbols that my life just wasn’t working.
So eventually in my stubbornness, God took away that which I would not release…
He used my resistance and need for control, to teach me surrender…
He turned my world upside down.
And it was the best thing that ever happened to me…
Eventually at least.
At first… it was horrible…
Until I realized I was living life upside down… And he had flipped it right side up!
The months that followed were a deep dive into spiritual “training”… Meditation, Qi Gong, Healing work, Shamanism, and letting go of my identities…
I learned many lessons during this phase of my life…
The one lesson that sticks out as I am typing is this…
When we let go, life always gets better…
There is a deep truth to the old saying: “When one door closes, another one opens…”
When we are devoted to healing and awakening, the door that opens leads to a more expansive, joyful life…
This is because we can only let go of that which we are NOT… Our identity, beliefs, emotions, traumas, and pain…
When we do this, we create more room for what we ARE… Our True Nature.
Our Nature is eternal Love, Bliss and Peace.
When I finally learned to let go and surrender, my life filled with clarity, purpose and love.
How have you experienced the power of surrender…?
Let me know! And talk soon,
Robbie
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